going to write a shit load in order to make up for not posting regularly

Lately I've been feeling like shit.

really.

Friday, the day before the break, i got home from school and was hit with the usual sleep, so I took a nice nap, HOPING, that when i woke up, i'd be up and about for the game that i was going to have at 6pm.

yeah, well, that didn't go so great.

when i got there, i was in a really bad mood, and even the coaches were noticing. i was feeling lightheaded, my body ached, and i also hadn't eaten in six hours.

okay, first things first. my name is adriana. adriana likes to eat.

alot.

adriana can't go two hours without feeling hungry. now imagine how she feels after not eating for six hours.

the sad part is during the first quarter of the game, i gave it my all. I dived after the ball (i play goalie), saved it so many times, you would have called me god. even with my body completely out of it, and my vision going all blurry and out of focus, i was playing damn hard.

second quarter is when it all started to fall apart. a few weeks earlier i had bruised my foot, and now it was killing me. i was absolutely spent, becuase i had given my all during the first quarter, and now i had an opposing team who was feeling vengeful and ready to snap my neck.

we ended up losing 4-2. they had scored all of it in the second quarter.

i don't blame my girls at all. I mean, yeah, they made a few mistakes, but who doesn't? and as stupid as this sounds though, i can't afford to make any mistakes becuase if i do, the other team scores and i beat myself up constantly about it.

well, when i got home, i ate, played video games a bit to make me feel better and then took another nap, which is strange becuase i don't take more than one nap.

saturday morning when i wake up, my throat is so dry it hurts to breathe, let alone swallow. My mouth is dry and pasty, nose is all stuffed up, my eyes are all puffy and swollen. Don't forget that after every game i wake up the next day with some sort of bruise or torn something.

yup.

it's been... what, about a week since then and i'm still sick. it's horrible. so far, i've been sick all winter break. this is not exactly how i wanted to spend it.

plus, i haven't been acting myself lately. it's gotten to the point to where i'm even forgetting to take my medicine in the morning.i don't go online anymore, so i'm rarely on meebo. i have a freakin' english project to do, and i've only done sketches, becuase i'm still getting the ideas for this project down. lately, all i've wanted to do is lay down and cry.

i've also sort of gotten into a fight with angelique.

it wasn't really a fight, but the closeness that was there when we talked seems to have dissapeared, and it's just not the same anymore. it's my fault really. i haven't exactly been a friend to her lately. the other day she got into a fight with her mom, and i didn't really care.

scratch that. i didn't care at all.

and i still don't.

i don't know what's going on, but right now i feel like i'm holding onto the ashes of a piece of paper, and i'm really not trying hard to hold on to them.

mmmm.

my christmas was pretty good though.

i got the game, prince of persia, which is ABSOLUTELY AMMAZING.

lol i've already beat it :P

i'm probably going to play it again though, haha.

i also got a whole bunch of DS games, i got pokemon dungeon, pokemone saphire (i know it's not for the DS, but i love that game, so i bought it anyway) and two kirby games :]

oh! and i reserved for the limited edition of Halo Wars >:3

i can't wait for it to come out!

so yeah, that's pretty much all i got for christmas, but that doesn't bother me, becuase i'm very content with it.

actually this year, more than recieving, i wanted to give my friends gifts.

it's too bad i didn't have any money though, and i feel horrible about it.

not much i can do about it now, though.


*sigh* oh well.

i think i'm done ranting.

besides, no one reads this anyway.